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| Wow..didnt think this would still be here after almost a year. but yeah lots have changed. im in college. aisha and i broke up. heh. downer right there. aisha got a bf, that's nice, im really actually quite happy for her. -sigh- but sadly i hate it and it hurts so god damn much. Heh, it's weird how much changes in college you know? Like, you THINK you can be away from the high school drama, but, nevertheless someone brings it to college with them. Yeah, i found a little bit, but, unlike in high school, drama is a lot easier to handle. Henyways. It's so weird, like, ever since i've started to work out and stuff, so many girls have come up to me and been like "hey i really like you" and, surprisingly, i've turned them all down. Way I see it is that there really is only a few girls at the college I would think of dating, too bad they aren't available, go figure eh? Buuut, time always brings good stuff. Sucks to be so lonely, looking around and reading I see messages of love and silly bf/gf shit, yet, I yearn for that so much. Being lonely really does suck. Tis my conclusion of life is that if you must be lonely, be lonely with style. Smoke weed, do something you never do. It's quite fun. Yes, i smoked weed once..mkay..a couple times...alright fine several. It's better than drinking right? Of course. Yeah, if you really try to live a little while lonely, it doesn't hurt as much. It's still there, but, not as much. -sigh- I'm glad I still have aisha around you know? She became one of my best friends, though it's still kind of tough to pry things out of her, hah. But it's also nice to have the others, to say some, Tyler (TCBL) - Heh love that guy, he is probably one of the first people I met here and so much fun, Steven Regensburg - craziest motha fucka out there man one warning if you drink with him watch it lol, Steven Ruff-uhh-yeah we'll call him Steven Ruff - Best man in the world, from countless nights playing guitar hero to waling to todd and eating, if it werent for this guy id go crazy in college. So many more people out there that I really appreciate having around. But hey, it's ryan, me, emotions aren't shown on my sleeve. Lmao. That's such a lie.
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| holy mother of crack and heroine needles...
i forgot about this, bah myspace took over thats why..mleh maybe ill post here on and off
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| So
yea, well it seems that i may have found a sonia in a sydney! Yay for
that, we had a really good talk about well things, and i trust her a
lot right now. So yea just wanted to let yall know that and you know
what I LOVE YOU AISHA ANSANO!!!! Sydney showed me that I really AM in
love with you, though i knew i was, for some reason ive been in this
slump and i feel tht i haven't been showing you the attention you
deserve aisha, so im here to say im sorry, and you will get another
deeper apology in person. I love you baby, dont forget that, cause now
it's more true and more pure than ever! I LOVE YOU!! and i love you too
sydz..you helped me a lot by just talking with me, thank you!
Love you,
Ninja
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| GRAWR!! Lyrics time! Ill post this on mah myspace too, if you want to check me out on myspace my user name is Itachi OwNz j00 or something to extent LYRICS!!
Once upon a time at the foot of a great mountain,
there was a town where the people known as Happyfolk lived,
their very existence a mystery to the rest of the world,
obscured as it was by great clouds.
Here they played out their peaceful lives,
innocent of the litany of excess and violence that was growing in the world below.
To live in harmony with the spirit of the mountain called Monkey was enough.
Then one day Strangefolk arrived in the town.
They came in camouflage, hidden behind dark glasses, but no one noticed them: they only saw shadows.
You see, without the Truth of the Eyes, the Happyfolk were blind.
Falling out of aeroplanes and hiding out in holes
Waiting for the sunset to come, people going home
Jump back from behind them and shoot them in the head
Now everybody dancing the dance of the dead,
the dance of the dead,
the dance of the dead
In time, Strangefolk found their way into the high reaches of the mountain,
and it was there that they found the caves of unimaginable Sincerity and Beauty.
By chance, they stumbled upon the Place Where All Good Souls Come to Rest.
The Strangefolk, they coveted the jewels in these caves above all things,
and soon they began to mine the mountain, its rich seam fueling the chaos of their own world.
Meanwhile, down in the town, the Happyfolk slept restlessly,
their dreams invaded by shadowy figures digging away at their souls.
Every day, people would wake and stare at the mountain.
Why was it bringing darkness into their lives?
And as the Strangefolk mined deeper and deeper into the mountain,
holes began to appear, bringing with them a cold and bitter wind that chilled the very soul of them up.
For the first time, the Happyfolk felt fearful for they knew that soon the Monkey would soon stir from its deep sleep.
And then came a sound. Distant first, it grew into castrophany so immense it could be heard far away in space.
There were no screams. There was no time.
The mountain called Monkey had spoken.
There was only fire.
And then, nothing.
O little town in U.S.A, your time has come to see
There's nothing you believe you want
But where were you when it all came down on me?
Did you call me now?
I love that..song..story..epic..whatever you may call it..... | | |
| Probably, for the first time in ages, i cried over a friend. A best friend at that.
My best friend, Amanda Brooks, FINALLY called me, and i just freaked
out...i mean literally..i got super hyper cause, i mean, its been sooo
long and she is in college and its rare for me to talk to her or see
her. So it was good. We talked for about 15 minutes then she said she
missed us, and me, and everyone here at RHS. And..i cried..i cried
hard...she told me not to but hey i couldn't help it. I mean it's hard
to lose your best friend, the person you used to always go to to talk
to about anything and everything, the person you went to for a hug when
you needed it most, that person you fell asleep on that night when your
parents thought you were at another friends house(This is pre-aisha,
and for the record nothing happened, just wasnt that kind of
relationship), that person who you were closest to..yea that's my best
friend Sonia aka Amanda. I cried pretty hard cause it was so hard to go
through a year without her cause she was there from my beginning..and i
guess will be tthere till my ending of high school cause she will be
there for grad. Just god i cried...hm..it was a good cry though and i
think she liked hearing that cause it felt her feel like she belonged
there but she knew she needed to be at college. I miss sonia so damn
much..she said she loved me..i said i loved her..but it was the love of
two friends who know each other more than most people
do....hm...yeah...i needed that cry with that voice on the other
end..felt pretty fuckin good man..pretty fuckin good...so..i hope that
she calls again soon, and hope she comes down to visit soon.
Love all!
specially my aisha bear!
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